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Rakhal (Later Brahmananda) |
CHAPTER:4; PART-IV
October 16, 1882
It
was Monday, a few days before the Durga Puja, the festival of the Divine
Mother. Sri Ramakrishna was in a very happy state of mind, for Narendra
was with him. Narendra had brought two or three young members of the
Brahmo Samaj to the temple garden. Besides these, Rakhal, Ramlal, Hazra,
and M. were with the Master.
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Narendra (Later Vivekananda) |
Narendra
had his midday meal with Sri Ramakrishna. Afterwards a temporary bed was
made on the floor of the Master's room so that the disciples might rest
awhile. A mat was spread, over which was placed a quilt covered with a
white sheet. A few cushions and pillows completed the simple bed.
Like a child, the Master sat near Narendranath on the bed. He talked with
the devotees in great delight. With a radiant smile lighting his face,
and his eyes fixed on Narendra, he was giving them various spiritual teachings,
interspersing these with incidents from his own life.
MASTER: "After I had experienced
samādhi, my mind craved intensely to hear only about God. I would always
search for places where they were reciting or explaining the sacred books, such
as the Bhagavata, the Mahabharata, and the Adhyātma Rāmāyana. I used to
go to Krishnakishore to hear him read the Adhyātma Rāmāyana.
Krishnakishore's faith:
"What tremendous faith
Krishnakishore had! Once, while at Vrindāvan, he felt thirsty and went to a
well. Near it he saw a man standing. On being asked to draw a
little water for him, the man said: 'I belong to a low caste, sir. You
are a brahmin. How can I draw water for you?' Krishnakishore said: 'Take
the name of Śiva. By repeating His holy name you will make yourself
pure.' The low-caste man did as he was told, and Krishnakishore, orthodox
brahmin that he was, drank that water. What tremendous faith!
"Once
a holy man came to the bank of the Ganges and lived near the bathing-ghat at
Ariadaha, not far from Dakshineswar. We thought of paying him a
visit. I said to Haladhāri: 'Krishnakishore and I are going to see a holy
man. Will you come with us?' Haladhāri replied, 'What is the use of
seeing a mere human body, which is no better than a cage of clay?' Haladhāri
was a student of the Gita and Vedanta philosophy, and therefore referred to the
holy man as a mere 'cage of clay'. I repeated this to Krishnakishore.
With great anger he said: 'How impudent of Haladhāri to make such a remark! How
can he ridicule as a "cage of clay" the body of a man who constantly
thinks of God, who meditates on Rama, and has renounced all for the sake of the
Lord? Doesn't he know that such a man is the embodiment of Spirit?' He was so
upset by Haladhāri's remarks that he would turn his face away from him whenever
he met him in the temple garden, and stopped speaking to him.
"Once
Krishnakishore asked me, 'Why have you cast off the sacred thread?' In those
days of God-vision I felt as if I were passing through the great storm of
Āświn, and everything had blown away from me. No trace of my old self was
left. I lost all consciousness of the world. I could hardly keep my
cloth on my body, not to speak of the sacred thread! I said to Krishnakishore, 'Ah,
you will understand if you ever happen to be as intoxicated with God as I was.'
"And
it actually came to pass. He too passed through a God-intoxicated state,
when he would repeat only the word 'Om' and shut himself up alone in his
room. His relatives thought he was actually mad, and called in a
physician. Ram Kaviraj of Natagore came to see him. Krishnakishore
said to the physician, 'Cure me, sir, of my malady, if you please, but not of
my Om.' (All laugh.)
"One
day I went to see him and found him in a pensive mood. When I asked him
about it, he said: 'The tax-collector was here. He threatened to dispose
of my brass pots, my cups, and my few utensils, if I didn't pay the tax; so I am
worried.' I said: 'But why should you worry about it? Let him take away your
pots and pans. Let him arrest your body even. How will that affect
you? For your nature is that of Kha!' (Narendra and the others laugh.) He used
to say to me that he was the Spirit, all-pervading as the sky. He had got
that idea from the Adhyātma Rāmāyana. I used to tease him now and then,
addressing him as 'Kha'. Therefore I said to him that day, with a smile:
'You are Kha. Taxes cannot move you!'
Master's outspokenness:
"In that state of
God-intoxication I used to speak out my mind to all. I was no respecter
of persons. Even to men of position I was not afraid to speak the
truth.
"One
day Jatindra came to the garden of Jadu Mallick. I was there too. I
asked him: 'What is the duty of man? Isn't it our duty to think of God?'
Jatindra replied: 'We are worldly people. How is it possible for us to
achieve liberation? Even King Yudhisthira had to have a vision of hell.' This
made me very angry. I said to him: 'What sort of man are you? Of all the
incidents of Yudhisthira's life, you remember only his seeing hell. You
don't remember his truthfulness, his forbearance, his patience, his
discrimination, his dispassion, his devotion to God.' I was about to say many
more things, when Hriday stopped my mouth. After a little while Jatindra
left the place, saying he had some other business to attend to.
"Many
days later I went with Captain to see Rājā Sourindra Tagore. As soon as I
met him, I said, 'I can't address you as "Rājā", or by any such
title, for I should be telling a lie.' He talked to me a few minutes, but even
so our conversation was interrupted by the frequent visits of Europeans and
others. A man of rajasic temperament, Sourindra was naturally busy with
many things. Jatindra his eldest brother, had been told of my coming, but
he sent word that he had a pain in his throat and couldn't go out.
"One
day, in that state of divine intoxication, I went to the bathing-ghat on the
Ganges at Baranagore. There I saw Jaya Mukherji repeating the name of
God; but his mind was on something else. I went up and slapped him twice
on the cheeks.
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Rani Rasmani |
"At
one time Rani Rasmani (see Picture) was staying in the temple garden. She came to the
shrine of the Divine Mother, as she frequently did when I worshipped Kāli, and
asked me to sing a song or two. On this occasion, while I was singing, I
noticed she was sorting the flowers for worship absent-mindedly. At once
I slapped her on the cheeks. She became quite embarrassed and sat there with
folded hands.
"Alarmed
at this state of mind myself, I said to my cousin Haladhāri: 'Just see my
nature! How can I get rid of it?' After praying to the Divine Mother for some
time with great yearning, I was able to shake off this habit.
His anguish at worldly talk:
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Mathur Babu |
"When
one gets into such a state of mind, one doesn't enjoy any conversation but that
about God. I used to weep when I heard people talk about worldly
matters. When I accompanied Mathur Babu (see picture) on a pilgrimage, we spent a few
days in Benares at Raja Babu's house. One day I was seated in the
drawing-room with Mathur Babu, Raja Babu, and others. Hearing them talk
about various worldly things, such as their business losses and so forth, I
wept bitterly and said to the Divine Mother: 'Mother, where have You brought
me? I was much better off in the temple garden at Dakshineswar. Here I am
in a place where I must bear about "woman and gold". But at
Dakshineswar I could avoid it.' "
The
Master asked the devotees, especially Narendra, to rest awhile, and he himself
lay down on the smaller couch.
His ecstasy in Kirtan:
Late in the afternoon Narendra
sang. Rakhal, Lātu, M., Hazra, and Priya, Narendra's Brahmo friend, were
present. The singing was accompanied by the drum:
Meditate, O my
mind, on the Lord Hari,
The Stainless One, Pure Spirit through and through.
How peerless is the light that in Him shines!
How soul-bewitching is His wondrous form!
How dear is He to all His devotees!
After this song Narendra sang:
Oh, when will
dawn for me that day of blessedness
When He who is all Good, all Beauty, and all Truth,
Will light the inmost shrine of my heart?
When shall I sink at last, ever beholding Him,
Into that Ocean of Delight?
Lord, as Infinite Wisdom Thou shalt enter my soul,
And my unquiet mind, made speechless by Thy sight,
Will find a haven at Thy feet.
In my heart's firmament, O Lord, Thou wilt arise
As Blissful Immortality;
And as, when the chakora beholds the rising moon,
It sports about for very joy,
So, too, shall I be filled with heavenly happiness
When Thou appearest unto me.
Thou One
without a Second, all Peace, the King of Kings!
At Thy beloved feet I shall renounce my life
And so at last shall gain life's goal;
1 shall enjoy the bliss of heaven while yet on earth!
Where else is a boon so rare bestowed?
Then shall I see Thy glory, pure and untouched by stain;
As darkness flees from 1ight, so will my darkest sins
Desert me at Thy dawn's approach.
Kindle in me, O Lord, the blazing fire of faith
To be the pole-star of my life;
O Succour of the weak, fulfil my one desire!
Then shall I bathe both day and night
In the boundless bliss of Thy Love, and utterly forget
Myself, O Lord, attaining Thee.
Narendra sang again:
With beaming
face chant the sweet name of God
Till in your heart the nectar overflows.
Drink of it ceaselessly and share it with all!
If ever your heart runs dry, parched by the flames
Of worldly desire, chant the sweet name of God,
And heavenly love will moisten your arid soul.
Be sure, O
mind, you never forget to chant
His holy name: when danger stares in your face,
Call on Him, your Father Compassionate;
With His name's thunder, snap the fetters of sin!
Come, let us fulfil our hearts' desires
By drinking deep of Everlasting Joy,
Made one with Him in Love's pure ecstasy.
Now
Narendra and the devotees began to sing kirtan, accompanied by the drum and
cymbals. They moved round and round the Master as they sang:
Immerse
yourself for evermore, O mind,
In Him who is Pure Knowledge and Pure Bliss.
Next they sang:
Oh, when will
dawn for me that day of blessedness
When He who is all Good, all Beauty, and all Truth
Will light the inmost shrine of my heart?
At last
Narendra himself was playing on the drums, and he sang with the Master, full of
joy:
With beaming
face chant the sweet name of God
When
the music was over, Sri Ramakrishna held Narendra in his arms a long time and
said, "You have made us so happy today!" The flood-gate of the
Master's heart was open so wide, that night, that he could hardly contain
himself for joy. It was eight o'clock in the evening. Intoxicated
with divine love, he paced the long verandah north of his room. Now and
then he could be heard talking to the Divine Mother. Suddenly he said in
an excited voice, "What can you do to me?" Was the Master hinting
that maya was helpless before him, since he had the Divine Mother for his
support?
SOURCE: The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna